The Audio Poetry Project 

The Audio Poetry Project is Brian's Vision for connecting 

Musicians with his Lyrics from Audio Poetry to promote

both Musician and Writer. The Project begins with a Musician selecting a Lyrics to

they will add Music and Vocals for. Then the Musician sends Brian their Version so it can be placed on a designated Youtube Channel which will promote both the Write and the Musician.


For use in Co-Writing with equal division of Songwriting Royalties.


It is understood that lyrics would need to be condensed or modified for Music.


8/24/2018 

Contact Brian 

"Shattered Glass" Author Reading

 Lyrics by Brian Newman

Available in Print Through the Book 

"Audio Poetry, Poems and Prayer for Weary Hearts"

Pocketless Coat

By Brian Newman

POCKETLESS COAT

(Male) I wanna be buried one day when I'm old

In a suite with the pocket cut-out of the jacket

Cause I want my last fashion statement

To let my brothers know

-This world's toys will please you

But you can't take it when you go

Its not what you bring along that saves you

Its what you left for others when you rode

The long ride of life is short

Chorus: About this time tommorrow

This train will leave its tracks

The last station in your journey

The last moment you have to look back

The clock is surely ticking Are you wearing your pocketless coat?

Are you wearing your pocketless coat?

- (Female) I wanna be buried one day when I'm old

In a locket with the portrait cut-out of the frame

Cause I want my last romantic gesture To let my sisters know

Are you grabbing your pocketless coat?

-These silly boys may please you

But you can't take them when you go

Its not who you bring along that saves you

Its who you changed when you rode

The long ride of life is short

(Repeat Chorus, but with pictureless locket)

(Both Vocals)

When are we gonna learn my children

There is nothing here and nobody to hold

Those plaques and portraits on the wall can't save you

This life is not your home

This world is just a hotel room

Are you wearing your pictureless locket?

Are you grabbing your pocketless coat?

Right before the elevator to atmosphere opens

You climb on board and God closes its doors

Will you be holding to the furniture

Will you be clinging to a portraitless locket

Or be glad you wore a pocketless coat?

Are you grabbing your pocketless coat?


Prayer for Those Seeking a Pocketless Coat

The Aleph and Tav, Alpha and Omega, who begins and ends the Clock of Time

We ask that you teach us to Number our Days and our Minutes Carefully

We ask that you teach us to hold our Hours Close, and our Loved Ones Close more Hours

We ask that you lead us to those Hearts we are to Love,

While we still have Sand in the Hourglass to Love Them With

We ask that our Death be made a Beautiful Moment Completed

We ask that our Last Day be the change to a Solemn Season to our Children

Not just the day when their Money Machine Broke Down

We ask that our Hearts be filled with Joy when you Smile on Us

Not just because we hear the empty clamor of man’s short lived Applause

We ask that our Lives establish your Kingdom of Truth and Love on the Earth

Not just build our Castles of Sand and our “Empire of Dirt”


“Sons of Adam are a vapor, sons of man are an illusion. In balanced scales they go up— altogether they are less than a breath.”

Psalm 62:10 Tree of Life Version


Resources: “Journey of Desire” by John Eldredge

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fzC1Uk_TKs 

Elizabeth's Matches

By Brian Newman 

ELIZABETH'S MATCHES

Tore portraits off the nail last Tuesday

Cause frames hang all we see

Elizabeth shatters the face in the mirror

Answering the scars that go unseen

........Behind a perfect smile they hide

........Behind her smile she slides

Elizabeth lit all her matches

Built a light to catch her eyes

Consume all the walls that confine her

To a life that she spins in,

Doesn't live

........Been screaming but no one will hear

........Behind her smile she slides

CHORUS:

Burning down

Walls around you

Perfect portraits

Isn't really you there

-Unwrapping the sadness

You've kept a secret

Pulling all your matches out!

Elizabeth showed me her matches

In a box marked suicide romances

Filled up with guitars and addictions

Tattooed as a message to Dad

"Everyone sees her singing like a Cherub

On the front pew of his Sunday morning show

Nobody can see his angel's soul is lost in limbo

Forgotten in the message he sold"

Tonite she won't be practicing her courtsies and hellos

But watching the perfect portraits burn down

Said to me that beauty is like her cigarrette's

In the end its just plain killing you

After all the glamour and the music is gone

CHORUS:

Burning down

Walls around you

Perfect portraits

Isn't really you there

-Unwrapping the sadness

You've kept a secret

Pulling all your matches out!

Elizabeth don't tell me I'll find only ashes

When I'm close enough to see

Hold back your bottle hand

A little longer

And we'll be banging on your door to get in

Behind the smiles you slide


Prayer for Everyone Burning Their Matches

To The God Who Asks for Honesty not Perfection

We ask that you give us the Courage to be more transparent that Stained Glass

We ask that you give us the Integrity to use the same words in the Kitchen Chair as the Pew

We ask that we find Truth and not just Religion when we look for your Name

We ask that we find Love and not just Courtesy when we enter your Doors

We ask that you rescue us from our own Masquerade

We ask that you wipe away our painted Faces to reveal the Tears behind

We ask that you remove these Suites and Ties to show the world the Chains we Hide

We ask that most of all our children not hate us for the Rebels and Hypocrites we have Become


“I hate, I despise your festivals!

I take no delight in your sacred assemblies.

Even if you offer me burnt offerings and your grain offerings,

I will not accept them,

nor will I look

at peace offerings of your fattened animals.

Take away from Me the noise of your songs!

I will not listen to the melody of your harps.

But let justice roll like water

and righteousness like an ever-flowing torrent.”

Amos 5:21 Tree of Life Version


Resource: “Beautiful Outlaw” by John Eldredge

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSiSMibEGyU  

Shattered Glass

By Brian Newman

SHATTERED GLASS

You’re waking up in my car

For now we both are safe

Where you roll into

Becomes my favorite place

-So lay your head down for a while

And just exist tonite

Later on we’ll drive around

No one’s looking now

-I wanna hear

How your day was spent

Think I could know all they can’t comprehend

Do you wanna see

A smile that comprehends

CHORUS:

After they bleed your dreams of hope

Where do they run?

Who will stitch them up when you call?

Why do you run home before its time?

But that’s a secret yours to keep and not mine

Through the shattered glass you see it all

And sometimes our visions get so broke

We can’t see at all

Don’t let the rocks they throw

Shatter all you’re hoping for

-Behind a broken telescope

Last night you found your star

Between the broken strings

A best friend plays your song

With a broken pen I’m writing you letters

To be read aloud, on the radio

About the moments we’re drunk

On the moonbeam’s undertow

In that same coffeehouse

Where your smile first shone

-So lay your head down for a while

And just exist tonite

Later on we’ll drive around

No one’s looking now

CHORUS: After your star burns out where does it fall?

We could go pin it back up, let me know

Someone needs to take a picture before your smile is stole

Another dollar for some fuel

Is all we’re waiting on

Off into that marble sky we drove

And never looking back

Cause no one’s going to hang our portraits once we’re gone

But that’s a secret ours to keep and the world will never know

Through the shattered glass we see it all

And sometimes our visions get so broke

We can’t see at all

Don’t let the rocks they throw

Shatter all we’re hoping for

-Hey I’m always here to answer when you call

For a while we’ll drive around

Then I’ll take you home

I will not be cut-by the shattered glass

From the rocks they like to throw


Prayer for Those Walking On Shattered Glass


To The God Who Places the Lonely in Homes

We ask that You see all that we have Missed.

We ask that you Ride with us on our Lonely Drives through the Night

We ask that you Hear our Cries into our Pillows

We ask that you Sit beside us at our Tables for One

We ask that you dry our Tears at the Movies

We ask that you Play these Love Songs when we forget the Sound

We ask that you Hold us as we Hold our Children by Ourselves

We ask that you Hold up our Arms as we do the Holding meant for Two

We ask that you give us Friends who Witness our Lives

We ask that you give us Companions who will Hold our Secrets

We ask for all of this until you bring us a Covenant Love


“God settles the lonely in a home. He leads prisoners out to prosperity.

But the rebellious live in a parched land.” Psalm 68:7


Resource: Celebrate Recovery Groups www.celebraterecovery.com 

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Armies

By Brian Newman

ARMIES

Tonight, All the stars could fall

Tonight, Will break the chains off us all

Left at one last dance-Nothing here to lose

I wanna light the flame-Fire that’s barely burning in you

Give this dance a chance and if

Tonite I hold you tight-And break down the walls

Kiss your face soft-And open up gates to your soul

Don't lose it all-Wondering when this siege on time ends

And then-What will the armies take away?

Tonite, Life's soldiers could halt

Tonite, Our inner wars will stop

When I take hold your hand-Roses in moonlite entwine

This moment immortal-Cause in us it never dies

And this dance is a tower-Our love will reign safe here forever

These dreams roll on unhindered-And life's soldiers never arrive

To steal them by surprise-When we give our fears up to the fire

When we give it all, all we'll ever need to smile-Is in tonite

Tonite I hold you tight-And break down the walls

Kiss your face soft Open up gates to your soul

Don't lose it all Wondering when this siege on time ends

And then

What will the armies take away?

Tomorrow, Don't you let this go

When our feet hit the ground

God turns back his face-Or time erases our smiles

Tomorrow, Don't you let this go

When roses give way to thorns Life's armies march on our tower

Yeah we may lose the war, But you won't fight this alone

Don't lose it all Wondering when this siege on time ends

And then

What will the armies take away?


Prayer for those the Armies have come Against

Creator and Sustainer of our Hearts

We come before you asking for a Big Love

We ask for a Love without Fig Leaves like Adam and Eve

We ask for a Love Larger than our Fears

We ask for a Love that keeps the Fire when others have fallen to Ash

We ask for the Walls to come done and never rise Again

We ask for the Hope to wave like a Flag and never Fall

We ask for a Love that grows and gains Ground

A Love that lets us Embrace our Beloved but also our Neighbor and our Enemy

We ask for a Love that brings not only Joy but also Change

We ask for that Banner over us to be Love and to be Raised


“So Jacob worked for Rachel seven years, yet in his eyes it was like a few days,

because of his love for her.” Genesis 29:20 Tree of Life Version


Resource: www.boundless.org Focus on the Family for Singles

Best Things They Threw Away

By Brian Newman

We Are The Best Things They Threw Away

I am newer in spirit than these ragged clothes

I am more complete than my broken home

I am not fractured in character like your heroes are

I am in a braver world than you might decide

From the timid smile I dwell behind

Chorus:

And we are the best things They threw away

And we are the next ones To save the day

We are always exceptions to the rules

Tell that little child Next it could be you

You are the best thing, They threw away

The best thing They threw away

-My friend you are worth more than you know

Maybe you've been pinned down by their heavy words and sold

Maybe tonite is time to check the scars

In any given moment you may spread your wings and fly

That's why I always say a sweet goodbye

Chorus:

And we are the best things They threw away

And we are the next ones To save the day

We are always exceptions to the rules

Tell that little child Next it could be you

You are the best thing, They threw away

The best thing They threw away


Prayer for Best Things They Threw Away

Lover of our Souls, Our Souls being Who We Are

We ask You to change the Price Tags

Others Lowered all the way Down and placed on our Hearts

We ask You to bring your Hammer and Nails

For their words have blown us Around

We ask You to Paste our Wings

Cause these Years went and pulled our Feathers Out

We ask You to gather the Pieces

Cause we found they wouldn’t fit with anyone anywhere

So we sent them Sailing South

We ask You to bring the Best Things They Threw Away

We ask You to bring the Best Pieces of Ourselves back Around


“As for the kedoshim who are in the land, they are noble—in them is all my delight.”

Psalm 16:3


Resource: “LifeHouse’s Everything Skit” on Youtube.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8VGwVtYxEy8 

Abba's Beautiful Child

By Brian Newman

Abba’s Beautiful Child

You see a blue and green world

Through dark brown eyes

You find a smiling future

Despite the frowning times

Chorus:

You'll always be

Running towards the rainbow

At the end of the line

You'll always be

Abba's beautiful child

-Turn all the bad days around just fine

And I'm thankful that you are a Sweet Child of mine

The past cant hold you in place

Cant pin you down with shame

Cant corrupt your heart with hate

Cause the future calls your name

The bright days are waiting

Got no time to waste

In the Rain

Chorus:

You see a blue and green world

Through dark brown eyes

You find a smiling future

Despite the frowning times

Youll always be

Running towards the rainbow

At the end of the line

Youll always be

Abba's beautiful child

-Falling down again

But you get back up

The whole world would crumble in

But all you need is love

To pick yourself back up

So your blue and green view

Through your dark brown eyes

Will never fade

To black and gray

Abba's little girl

And that will never change

Chorus:

You see a blue and green world

Through dark brown eyes

You find a smiling future

Despite the frowning times

Youll always be

Running towards the rainbow

At the end of the line

Youll always be

Abba's beautiful child


Prayer for Abba’s Beautiful Children

Only Perfect Father

We come to you as Fathers and as Mothers

We come to you as Guardians of the Innocent

We come to you as Guides and Teachers for those following us on the Path

We come to you as Providers and Protectors of the Lives you have Entrusted to Us

We ask for Your Strength and that you Train our Hands for War

As we Fight for their Fragile Hearts

We ask that You lend us the Mind of Messiah, Who Loved Perfectly

As we teach them Your Ways which always lead to Life, as our ways only lead to Death

We ask for your Provision, as this World has been left a desolate battlefield by our Ancestors

As we seek to nourish them into bearing good fruit in their bodies, minds, hearts and Spirits

We ask that you Forgive us our frayed Patience

We ask that you Heal our battered Places

We ask that you Pull us from the Fires we started in Foolishness

We ask that you Mend the Hearts we have Broken

We ask that you glue the Covenants we have left to come Undone

We ask that none of these be their Legacy as it was for Us

We ask most of all, that our Children walk 

In the Shalom that we did Not.


“A Song of Ascents. Of Solomon.

Unless ADONAI builds the house,

the builders labor in vain.

Unless ADONAI watches over the city,

the watchman stands guard in vain.

In vain you rise up early and stay up late,

eating the bread of toil—

for He provides for His beloved ones even in their sleep.

Behold, children are a heritage of ADONAI

—the fruit of the womb is a reward.

As arrows in the hand of a mighty man,

so are the children of one’s youth.

Happy is the man whose quiver is full of them.

They will not be put to shame

when they speak with their enemies at the gate.”

Psalm of David 127


Resource: http://www.nationalcasa.org/

Court Appointed Special Advocate for Children Program

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Stars That Don't Burn Out

By Brian Newman

STARS THAT DON’T BURN OUT

Small town voices say you’re too far gone

All these tired, tired lives

Everybody’s got a Radio

But not a single song to call their own

Everybody’s got a white picket fortress

But not a courageous moment to take home

-Here’s to all the words you never spoke

Songs that burned your mouth in silence

Letters that never found a stamp

-Here’s to all the paint you never spilled

Family Portraits in black and white, fragile plastic perfection

Destinations that never found a map

Chorus: Close your eyes Dream out louder

Run until the morning sun outshines the dark lies that they have spun

Drive until the evening brings the silver linings back to you

Close your eyes Dream out louder

We will lay you down

Beneath a blanket of impossibilities

Your star will never burn out

-Raise a glass to the check-out stand Visionaries

Your star will never burn out!

Fly above the gray haired children

In the house that fear has built

Let your hymns of freedom break the chains

Cause it sounds like chained up melodies they’re handing out

-Anthems of Mothers afraid to be alone so they control

Fathers like weary lions locked up in a cage too long

Sons that won’t leave home to find their strength and a reason to go the war

Daughters who want the knight but fear the sword and losing their control

Chorus: Close your eyes Dream out louder

Run until the morning sun outshines the dark lies that they have spun

Drive until the evening brings the silver linings back to you

Close your eyes Dream out louder

We will lay you down

Beneath a blanket of impossibilities

Your star will never burn out

Raise a glass to the check-out stand Visionaries

Your star will never burn out!

-Dream out louder until nobody here

Is afraid to be alive

Friend tonight is yours to be a dreamer

No one here is going to steal the light you shine

Close your eyes Dream out louder

We will lay you down

Beneath a blanket of impossibilities

Your star will never burn out

Raise a glass to the check-out stand Visionaries

Your star will never burn out!

Prayer for The Stars That Don’t Burn Out

Dream Giver

We ask for You to return to us all the Dreams they Stole

We ask for You to lock the door inside that let the Vision Stealer In

We ask you to take us Home where we have never Been

We ask for the Courage to open our eyes and believe in You Again

More than this, We ask for to You show us what You can do through us if we let You

If we let You be the One that is the Source of Our Hope, the One that lets the Impossible Begin

“I will bless ADONAI, who counsels me. Even at night my heart instructs me.”

Psalm 16:7 Tree of Life Version

Resource: www.dreamsandmysteries.com

Confessions of a Tainted Saint

By Brian Newman

CONFESSIONS OF A TAINTED SAINT

Brother and Sisters

Let us bow a knee to pray

Today we ask forgiveness

For all the sins that we forgot to say

We are the Silent Stones

We are the Tainted Saints

By now Sodom could have put us all to Shame

By now Gomorrah could have gone in through the pearly Gates

Chorus:

Lord we ask for all the mercy

We have forgotten to hand out

Lord we ask for understanding

For all the mornings we used this pulpit just to shout

We are the Silent Stones

We are the Tainted Saints

Lord we ask for all the mercy

We have forgotten to hand out

We have forgotten to hand out

-These oaken pews in the arena

Turn our thumbs to the gladiators down

These dusty Bibles are on the bookshelf

Turn the t.v. preacher volume up when we hear the cries for help

-Have I become a better man than I once was?

Or have I just become a better showman on this stage?

Have I become a bearer of better fruit than yesteryear?

Or have I just pushed the bitter roots down into the ground?

Chorus:

Lord I ask for all the mercy

I have forgotten to hand out

Lord I ask for understanding

For all the mornings I used this pulpit just to shout

I am the Silent Stone

I am the Tainted Saint

Lord I ask for all the mercy

I have forgotten to hand out

I have forgotten to hand out

-By now Sodom could have put us all to Shame

By now Gomorrah could have gone in through the pearly Gates

We are laughing from our monitors

Where we watch your world as it burns

We are throwing the Stones at our Reflections

We are the tainted Saints drug out to the City Gates

- Lord I ask for all the mercy

I have forgotten to hand out

I have forgotten to hand out


Prayer for The Other Tainted Saints

The Great Forgiver and Only One Who Is True

We have little left to Say

Except that we are Sorry

We have Tainted Your Name to the World

While pretending to be Saints for our Neighbors

We have stained the Truth

We have Painted over the Lies

We have broken our Covenants

We have made a Show instead of making a Change

We are your Tainted Saints, we are your Prodigals Sons and Daughters, playing Older Brothers

And You, and You are the only Way we can be made Whole and Clean

And You, and You are the only Truth we have to Share, that they can still Believe.

Please Help Them to Still Believe.


“Woe to you, Torah scholars and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but inside are full of dead men’s bones and everything unclean.”

Matthew 23:27 Tree of Life Version


Resource: “She Must And Shall Go Free” 

Album by Derek Webb

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53eAvrknuZA

Timothy Keller “Doing Justice and Mercy” Sermon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8Fn4vTTXHM

Grenades in the Garden

by Brian Newman

GRENADES IN THE GARDEN

This body is not Broken

Not missing all my Blood

Though I am barely Breathing

Though I don’t have the wounds I Should

These thoughts they have been Rusted

Cause I don’t think about nothing but the Rain

How about you?

This trust it has been permanently Busted

Cause I can’t find the bandage and I can’t find the Glue

How about you?

Chorus:

Invisible is this War

They can’t see its mortars in my mind

They can’t see its bullets piercing through my youth

They can’t see the flares lighting up declaring I need Love

They can’t see the Signals or read the Codes or send a Rescue to my Shores

Invisible is this War Inside of Me

How about you?

-There are grenades out in the Garden

Not really it’s just in my Head

Though I’ve seen them rob me of my Brothers

Though now they all explode as I turn all night in my Bed

-

These thoughts they have been Rusted

Cause I don’t think about nothing but the Rain

How about you?

This Calm it has been permanently Surrendered

Cause in my broken mind they burned the Treaties and I can’t find the White Flags too

How about you?

Chorus:

Invisible is this War

They can’t see its mortars in my mind

They can’t see its bullets piercing through my youth

They can’t see the flares lighting up declaring I need Love

They can’t see the Signals or read the Codes or send a Rescue to my Shores

Invisible is this War Inside of Me

How about you?


Prayer for Those With Grenades In Their Garden

Warrior God

We ask you to Cleanse us of the blood on our Hands

We ask you to Ceasefire the War inside our Minds

We ask to you to Remind of All that we have Done

We ask to you Forgive Us for all that we Cannot

We ask you to Help us to Forgive Ourselves

We ask you to Hold those we have Left Behind in our Houses

We ask you to Welcome those we left Behind on our Battlefields

We ask you to bring us to a Palace of Peace

Instead of this Dungeon of Fear, Trapped in the Terrible Places we have Been

“Behold, it is Solomon’s traveling couch—

around it are sixty warriors from the warriors of Israel.

All of them wield a sword, experts in war.

Each man with his sword on his thigh against terrors of the night.”

Song of Songs 3:7


Resource: DNA Military with Marine Phil Downer

www.dnaministries.org

Resource: “Fear” Song by Blue October

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3b0-i1T8Hk 

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Nosferatu-Romeo

By Brian Newman

NOSFERATU-ROMEO

Another murmured moment

Baby murders slowly

Thoughts she thought had died

Went to find another hand

To hold the hammer

Watch your emotions crucified

Said he left you drained and crying

And I'm not surprised you called tonite

Yes I know its very late

But you know that its okay

CHORUS:

Another liar,

Another lover,

Replacement for another

Need that you won't name

-Is it you,

Or is it really

The sweetness of your nightmare that's denied?

Neon lights, will never lead you

Anywhere close enough to love

Selling off your heart so cheap

Won't stop Cinderella's clock before midnight

Candlelight and roses

Dilute the mind these drugs

A hunger is pawing at your heart shaped box

And February pills won't cure the ache

You loan the key to careless hands

Won't you let me break the lock they place

CHORUS:

Another liar,

Another vampire hypnotized you

And tonite another bed has burned your mind

-Is it easy,

Or are you really

This helpless to say no

Before another nosferatu-romeo has you in his hold

Cheaper Lovers and Cheaper Lines will never lead you

Anywhere close enough to love

Open windows, will never leave you

Anywhere close enough to love

Don't you hate the stupid boys

Who only care blonde from red

We could take it to the limit

Only with the softest kiss

Say goodnite at the door

And you'll never feel like this

-Pull you in

To my open ribs

Be close enough to love

Leave the Nosferatu-Romeos

To finally face the burning sun alone

Cause they like to lurk

Nowhere close enough to love


Prayer for Victims of Nosferatu-Romeos 

and Nosferatu Juliettes


Creator of Real Love

We ask you to restore our Hopes that Love can be Better

We ask you to come into our Cynicism and give it better Dreams

We ask you to come into our Romanticism and give it a new Reality

We ask you to come into our History and give it a new Future

We ask you to come into our Future and give it old Hopes

We ask that you Mend our Hearts which adore their own Killers and hate their own Surgeons

We ask that you Reprogram our Minds which were Set to Self-Destruct

We ask that these Butterflies finally flutter to the Sound of the Truth and not Lies

We ask that no more Nosferatu Romeo’s or Nosferatu Juliette’s have us in their Hold

“Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain,

but a woman who fears ADONAI will be praised.”

Proverbs 31:30

Resources: “Captivating” by Stasi Eldredge

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CP3S-ELpt_w&t=531s

Exodus Cry because every person should be freewww.exoduscry.com 

Girl They Stole Away

By Brian Newman

GIRL THEY STOLE AWAY

Hey do you remember Sending these words to me

Sometimes I had to wonder

If I would ever be enough

Said that this would show me

The kind of man you need

By these words I'll live my life.......

The strength of a man is not in

How hard he hits

But in how tender he can touch

The strength of a man is not in

How many women he has loved

But in how true he can be to

The one he's trying to love

CHORUS:

All of this I'm going to be

Man enough to find the girl

The boys have stole away

The boys have stole away........

Given so many bitter kisses

Sometimes you swear your through

Late at night you wonder

If this love will make a fool of you

Oh do you remember

Someone sending these words to you.......

The strength of a love is not in

The burning of a bridge

It's in the turning of a page

Do you remember us

Could it be just you and me

Regardless I am here

Despite the ghost you bring

Because through you I've learned

Strength of a man is not in

The deep tone of his voice

It's in the gentle words he whispers

Whispers in your ear

Strength of a man is not in How he makes love

But in the understanding

That there is more to making love

Than just making love....

CHORUS: All of this I'm going to be

Man enough to find the girl

The boys have stole away.........

The boys have stole away....


(Lyrics in Red taken from a Poem by an Unknown Author)


Prayer for Girl They Stole Away

Father of Every Daughter

We ask that you forgive us for how we have broken the Hearts of your Daughters

We ask that you Restore the integrity of the words Trust, and Honor and Love

We ask for Stronger Hearts, Kinder Hands, and more Loyal Eyes

We ask for the “Wisdom of Tenderness” and the Courage in Pursuing

We ask for better men for our own Daughters than we have Been

We ask for Sons that walk not in our Sins

We ask you for Second Chances at being Brothers, Fathers and Husbands Again

“In the same way, husbands, live with your wives in an understanding way. Though they are weaker partners, honor them as equal heirs of the grace of life. In this way, your prayers will not be hindered.” 1 Peter 3:7

Resource: “Priceless” by King and Country https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWkJ2B9kHHk

Apology

By Brian Newman

APOLOGY

Wonder now just how you feel

Someday time will grant me grace

And you will see

Every moment since we broke

I've begun to change

One day soon I might be the one you needed

Thought you found In our summer

Back before the boy in me

Went and stole it all away I wonder now

If he's sorry

Time, can't change the past Why, did I run and hide

Tonite, as I look back I,

Just wanna let you know I'm sorry

Know you've heard this all before

Now it’s for real and not just wanting

To get me back To where I'm supposed to be

In your arms Before the boy in me

Left the man in me and the woman in you both lonely -

Always wondered how

You got So much less than you deserve

Seems that fate has found A blindfold for her eyes

Always got in return Much less than you've given

Time, can't change the past

Why, did I run and hide

Tonite, as I look back I,

Just wanna let you know I'm sorry

This is much less than I need to bleed

For all your happiness I've taken

Hope you find every dream that lied

Said it hid inside my ribs

Take their dying light

Maybe you can make it burn on A little longer

I just wanna let you know I'm sorry

I just wanna let you know I'm sorry

If you can’t forget maybe God can forgive me?

I just wanna let you know I’m sorry


Prayer for Those In Need Of Apology 


To The God Who Offers the Grace of Forgiveness

We ask that you Forgive for us how we have harmed your Children, including Ourselves

We ask that you wash away the Weakness of our Tongues

We ask that you speak Louder to their Ears than our Words that Hurt

We ask that you Bind all that we have Broken

We ask you Forgive us for not giving our own Pain a Purpose

We ask that you turn the Bitter Seeds we have spreads into Sweeter Fruit

We ask that you turn to Beauty from Ashes the Fires that we Sparked

We ask that you Heal the Sickness we have brought to other Hearts

We ask that you Restore all that we have Stolen

We ask that you make Myrrh out of the Memories best left Forgot

We ask you to Forgive all that we Did, and all that we did Not.

“Come now, let us reason together,” says ADONAI. “Though your sins be like scarlet, they will be as white as snow.

Though they be red like crimson, they will become like wool.”

Isaiah 1:18 Tree of Life Version

Resource: www.healingrooms.com (find a local room). 

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Rocks Could Scream

By Brian Newman

Rocks Would Scream (Silence is Killing Me)

Silence Is,

Silence Is,

Killing Me

My Silence Is

My Silence Is

Killing You and Me

These Rocks could scream it

But it shouldn’t have to be that way

Chorus:

Take this heart

But not just for today

Take my words

And have Your Say

Take these hands

And rearrange

All my labor

Into fruit that saves

Into fruit that saves

These rocks could scream

But it shouldn’t have to be that way

-Silence Is

Silence Is

Silence is Not the Way

I am

I have been

Ready for a change

Chorus:

Take this heart

But not just for today

Take my words

And have Your Say

Take these hands

And rearrange

All my labor

Into fruit that saves

Into fruit that saves

These rocks could scream

But it shouldn’t have to be that way

-The children cry

And it shouldn’t have to be that way

Were missing Love

Were kissing pain

And Lord it stabs your heart

Shouldn’t it do mine the same?

Silence is,

Silence is,

My Silence is killing You and me

It’s just the same

People dying inside and out

Every single day

My Rock is crying streams

But it shouldn’t be this way

My silence is,

Killing you and me


- Prayer for Rocks Could Scream-

King Worthy of Our Worship

We come to you with an Apology for our Silence

We come to you in Repentance for giving the Affection due You to Another

We come to you today in place of our other Lovers

Lovers of Entertainment and Pleasure, of Glory and Gold, of Comfort and our own Kingdom Come

We ask that you remove the Scepters from our own “Empires of Dirt”

We ask that you help us Cast Our Crowns at your Feet and not just our Needs

We need your help to seek your Face and not just your Hand

We need your Help to seek not your Treasures and your Glory

We have found cheap substitutes in Tradition and Religion, for your Spirit and your Truth

We have forgotten that the fortune one is he who finds your Heart


“But an hour is coming—it is here now—when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for the Father is seeking such people as His worshipers. God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.” John 4:23

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Stars That Don't Burn Out

By Brian Newman

STARS THAT DON’T BURN OUT

Small town voices say you’re too far gone

All these tired, tired lives

Everybody’s got a Radio

But not a single song to call their own

Everybody’s got a white picket fortress

But not a courageous moment to take home

-Here’s to all the words you never spoke

Songs that burned your mouth in silence

Letters that never found a stamp

-Here’s to all the paint you never spilled

Family Portraits in black and white, fragile plastic perfection

Destinations that never found a map

Chorus: Close your eyes Dream out louder

Run until the morning sun outshines the dark lies that they have spun

Drive until the evening brings the silver linings back to you

Close your eyes Dream out louder

We will lay you down

Beneath a blanket of impossibilities

Your star will never burn out

-Raise a glass to the check-out stand Visionaries

Your star will never burn out!

Fly above the gray haired children

In the house that fear has built

Let your hymns of freedom break the chains

Cause it sounds like chained up melodies they’re handing out

-Anthems of Mothers afraid to be alone so they control

Fathers like weary lions locked up in a cage too long

Sons that won’t leave home to find their strength and a reason to go the war

Daughters who want the knight but fear the sword 

and losing their Post-Modern Role

Chorus: Close your eyes Dream out louder

Run until the morning sun outshines the dark lies that they have spun

Drive until the evening brings the silver linings back to you

Close your eyes Dream out louder

We will lay you down

Beneath a blanket of impossibilities

Your star will never burn out

Raise a glass to the check-out stand Visionaries

Your star will never burn out!

-Dream out louder until nobody here

Is afraid to be alive

Friend tonight is yours to be a dreamer

No one here is going to steal the light you shine

Close your eyes Dream out louder

We will lay you down

Beneath a blanket of impossibilities

Your star will never burn out

Raise a glass to the check-out stand Visionaries

Your star will never burn out!


Prayer for The Stars That Don’t Burn Out


Dream Giver

We ask for You to return to us all the Dreams they Stole

We ask for You to lock the door inside that let the Vision Stealer In

We ask you to take us Home where we have never Been

We ask for the Courage to open our eyes and believe in You Again

More than this, We ask for to You show us what You can do through us if we let You

If we let You be the One that is the Source of Our Hope, the One that lets the Impossible Begin


“I will bless ADONAI, who counsels me. Even at night my heart instructs me.”

Psalm 16:7 Tree of Life Version

Resource: www.dreamsandmysteries.com

I Believed

By Brian Newman

I BELIEVED

I believed

In the power of a lonely smile

I believed

That just this one kiss

Could light the skies

If we really wished (this moment would never die)

Tomorrow became today

Then you wouldn’t know me

Cause there’s a child inside of me

Broken boy you had yet to see

All the love he’s never known

Is the wind that kept him froze

But he could have burned for you

If you wanted him too

But he could have burned so bright for you

Did you want him too???

Chorus: We said Let us burn the cold dark skies

Let us melt these graffiti walls tonite

And the door that we’ve kept closed

Blocks the hallway that leads us home

And all the love we’ve never known

Was waiting just down the road

Was waiting just down the road

But that Road didn’t lead us Home

-You relived

The night your stars were stole

You relived

The times your tender hands were burned

By a kiss that lit the skies

And fluttered down into the sea

Did you really think (this night it would be right)

Tomorrow would never become today

Then you wouldn’t have held onto me

Cause there’s a place beside of me

That you would never like to stay

All the memories you came to see unfroze

Didn’t let you stand too close

But could you have rested safe yes, you

If you really wanted too

But you could have been blessed in this place yes, you

If you had wanted too

Oh did you ever want him too??

Chorus: We said Let us burn the cold dark skies

Let us melt these graffiti walls tonite

And the door that we’ve kept closed

Blocks the hallway that leads us home

And all the love we’ve never known

Was waiting just down the road

Was waiting just down the road

But that Road didn’t lead us Home


Prayer for Those Who Believed


Creator of Second Chances

We come to you with Fractured Faith

Fractured Faith in ourselves, in our hopes, our thoughts, our loves, and even in You

We come to you with the Best Things Broken

Broken by Everything we thought would be our Salvation and Solid Ground

We aren’t sure if you will come Through

We are sure however that there is no other Glue

Cause everyone else failed to bring their cape to save the Day

We believed and it Broke Us

We had Hope but it Choked the Life from Us

We got nothing left but Desperation

We got nothing left but our Hearts on the Floor

We are nothing but the Children waiting on a Father just like You

We are wishing we didn’t live like Orphans,

 but to take us Home or not is Up To You.


“In that day you will say: “I will give You thanks, ADONAI, for though You were angry with me, Your anger is turned away, and You comfort me.”

Isaiah 12:1


Resource: “Waking The Dead” by John Eldredge

“Love and War” by John and Stasi Eldredge

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJzLQNL4sGo  

In A Letter to the Radio

By Brian Newman

Letter From The Radio


Hear you're painting a new world

Don't like where you're left

Hey it’s okay now

I'm writing letters to the radio

Maybe this set of notes

Will be the one to make big

Though it don't pay the bills just yet

-Anyways wanna grab some coffee

Wanna hold a hand

Unwrap your thoughts and

Find a smile that comprehends

CHORUS:

I wanna run with your soul, lover of mine

Untangle your mind

There's a world behind your eyes

That turns in perfect rhyme

Heard about you on the radio......

Didn't think you could be true

When I heard about you

In a Letter from the radio....

-Learned you've done a lot of living

In not a lot of time

Hey that’s okay now

I've done a lot of dreaming

When I should have been dulling the sharp edges of my mind

I've done a lot of writing, playing

When I should have been working away my life

Or so they say….

Until I heard about you

In a Letter from the radio....

-Way you live is mesmerizing

You're shining so bright

I really like your thoughts

I'd really afraid to walk away

I really think I'm trapped here by your smile

And I really don't mind

Wouldn't it great if

You and I together, have finally found our place in time

These rooms are so much cardboard

These books are endless but no truths are within

Even if comets collided

No one would look up

So many things we could say

About of history and our bad luck

But we should close the old doors

Take it by faith, and begin it again

CHORUS:

Do you wanna walk on impossible waters

Under a sky that won't fall

Laugh at nothing for hours

Heal an open wound

Heard about you on the radio.......

Didn't think you could be true

When I heard about you

In a Letter from the Radio....

-Later when I call you

Will you jump to the line

Still talk forever

Will we be like we should?

Will we be like we could?

Heard I might not recognize you

As time turns the page

Just one chapter haunts me

If I miss a line

Will you close the book?

Heard about you,

In a Letter from the radio

Will we be like The Us in the end,

The radio said we should

A Forever and Ever Amen?

Prayer for Our Letter From the Radio


Blesser of Intimacy


We are here to ask for a the Restoration of our Sexuality

We have “lost something precious” by force or by Choice

We cannot get it back on our own without a Fight, without a Miracle

We need these scattered pieces of our Heart, given to too many Lovers

We need them glued together for unwrapping by the last one we are to Kiss

We need them gathered again for the last hand we are to Hold

We need this mending to let ourselves be held without Suspicion

We need this mending to be let ourselves give not just our heart but our Control

We thank you because it can done by You and You Alone


“You have captivated my heart,

my sister, my bride—

you captivated me with one of your eyes,

with one jewel from your necklace.

How delightful is your love, my sister, my bride!

How much better is your love than wine,

and the fragrance of your oils better than all spices!"

Song of Songs 4:9


Resource: “The 5 Love Languages” by Gary Chapman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_HOTB1oyfg

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Complicated

By Brian Newman

COMPLICATED


Yesterday I walked outside Just to get some sun

Then the sky fell down Laughing to myself

Cause somehow I knew That it would be raining

Always got to be......Complicated

Today I drove out to your place Just to get your smile

And I forgot to bring a flower To turn your frown

Baby you were crying Cause of the pain and cause I was trying-Complicated

Complicated Oh we shouldn't be

Everything so simple Gets confused just for me and you

-Pouring out a life On a table from the puzzle box

Put together you a prettier life On a table from the puzzle box

And then the pieces all get dropped Frazzling the vision for which we Fought

Always got to be......Complicated

Tonight I went And put it in a poem always Knowing

I can't get no gravity on my side Thought I was alive one time

But ink pens broke the news That everyone every day is surely dying

You try so hard to shine But like me you're still waiting

Waiting on a reason, Aren’t we always living in the Waiting Season

Complicated Oh we shouldn't be Everything simple,

Gets confused just for me and you

Can't take it so you hide And when I pick-up the line No one answers

Cost of Dreaming has risen so much your Realities been disconnected

Until stars come out to shine We're on the roof laughing till we're crying

Cause tomorrow this simple moment Will again be so….Complicated


Prayer for Those Who Find It All Too Complicated


To The God Who Works All Things Out For the Good of those who Love Him

We ask that you gather our Tragedies and transform them into Triumphs

We ask that our Empty Hands be open to Lift Others out of the Pit

We ask that you place these Broken Pieces into a Mosaic of Perseverance

We ask that you fashion our Red Cheeks into War Paint

We ask that you give our Pain a Purpose


“Now we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to His purpose.” 

Romans 8:28 TLV


Resource: “The Lion’s Path” Radio Show with Cole Davis

Episode-Overcoming Our Upbringing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_BFKKd-ze4&t=630s 

For My King

By Brian Newman

FOR MY KING


As my young life fades into the dark

Reach out for your light

Where do you hide

Can't you see me as I drift and slide

In and out of anger, desperation,

No Anchor

Cause of the words that you aren’t here to say

CHORUS:

Have I had time to fall this far

Always wondered where you are

Father shouldn't you be the one I call

Said you would be the one I call

-But the battles I've won don't free my heart

Cause for my king they were never enough

Walking the earth

Over this screaming heart I can't hear a softer voice

Searching for a map to find my king

But I found it tore

Reaching deep down into the pockets

Of the wise to find a key

But its rusted and broke

Reaching out to the one who I should know

Pleading to hear you say the words

Confess you brought my birth

Searching for you to find you gone

CHORUS:

Have I had time to fall this far

Always wondered where you are

Father shouldn't you be the one I call

Said you would be the one I call

-But the battles I've won won't free my heart

Cause for my King they were never enough

Conquered the world all by myself

Could topple your crown from where I stand

And I don't feel that you

Even know I'm here

Cause for my King I am never enough


Prayer For Those Searching for Their King


To Abba God, The God who Fathers the Fatherless

We ask that you Protect us where our Fathers were Not

We ask that you Provide for us where our Fathers were Not

We ask that you be a Priest for us where our Fathers were Not

We ask that you Lead us places our Fathers would Not

We ask that we become the Men or Marry the Men our Fathers were Not

Finally, We ask that you help us Forgive our Fathers for being the Men that they were Not


“He will turn the hearts of fathers to the children, and the hearts of children to their fathers—else I will come and strike the land with utter destruction.”

Malachi 3:24 Tree of Life Version


Resource: ”The Father Effect” with John Eldredge

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iZnFPXVJ60&t=12s  

Bluer Skies

By Brian Newman

BLUER SKIES

She pours cinnamon into her cappuccino

But she’s got ginger in her hair

And she’s got something sweeter in her smile

-She’s pours out no sugar coated excuses

About not living the life she’s given

This girl has got no room for years of alibis

Cause she’s got a gentle fire that won’t be satisfied

CHORUS: Bluer skies are always in her eyes

And in her white lace mind anyone can fly

If they just believe

If she just believed

If she just believed in him

For a while

-The boys bring her flowers

And she just gives them back a smile

Another swears his gold will save her from that tower

But we both know he missed her heart by a mile

-So she saves her kiss for another hour

Keeps her eyes open for the Romeo that’s right

Another knight in armor shining never been rusted or battered

But we both know he won’t survive her battles tonight

Cause she’s got deep scars we know that he can’t find

CHORUS: Bluer skies are always in her eyes

And in her white lace mind anyone can fly

If they just believe If she just believed

If she just believed in him

For a while

-I tell her about my forgotten dreams

The ones I’ve loved are the ones that leave

She gives that smile that just stops time

And promises I’ll be fine

Bluer skies are always in her eyes

And in her white lace mind anyone can fly

If they just believe

-She keeps a sadness no one sees but me

In the heart she just can’t hide

At 2.a.m. when nobody’s around

Bluer skies are raining down

Cause her daddy never had the time

She calls me up in the dead of night

Apologizing like it’s a crime

By now she knows that I don’t mind

And I convince her again

That her secret star will always shine

CHORUS: Bluer skies are always in her eyes

And in her white lace mind anyone can fly

If they just believe If he had just believed

If he had just spent some time with her

If he just believed in her

For a while

-Bluer skies are always in her eyes

And in her white lace mind even she can fly

For a while


Prayer for Those Seeking Bluer Skies


Creator of the Beautiful

We ask that you bring people into our lives that we cannot Forget

We ask that we have our Eyes opened to see how they Shine in the Dark

We ask that we have our Ears opened to hear their Soul’s own unique Song

We ask that our Hearts be pulled towards the ones who are meant to Share our Path

We ask that we our Words be Seeds that bring Fruit in the Right Season

We ask that our Years produce a Harvest of Joy in the ones we Cherish


“Whoever finds a wife finds good, 

and receives favor from ADONAI.”

Proverbs 18:22

Resource: www.ChristianMingle.com Faith Based Dating Site 

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Telescope

By Brian Newman

TELESCOPE

My friend he has found a telescope

For taking his pictures of home

Round this town nobody looks up from the ground

Somehow he’s going to turn her life around

Holding on to a promise that begins and ends before and after him

Taking notes from the lessons they didn’t learn

Living larger than the lives that you’ve been shown

So much wiser than the years that you’ve watched turn

-My friend she has found a comrade

Playing guitar in her music box

Coming in above the static they dance to

Listening for a voice that calls from home

And a dream that’s just around the block

CHORUS:

Living larger than the lives that you’ve been shown

So much wiser than the years you’ve watched turn

Running further than these chains will let you move

Earned a token for a cloud that leaves tonite

And a telescope to see your life unfold

-They gave them a broken pen and tattered paper

Together they turned it into moon and stars

Every clock that’s on these walls

Takes a hundred years to turn

Writing about more sailboats

And visions most can’t see

All sleeping drunken on the shores

While the ships are coming in

And setting out again

Both are hanging by the silver lining

Of a cloud that leaves tonite

CHORUS:

Living larger than the lives that you’ve been shown

So much wiser that the years you’ve watch burn

Running further than these chains will let you move

Earned a token for a cloud that leaves tonite

And a telescope to see your life unfold

Prayer for Those with Broken Telescopes


Father of Visions and Visionaries


We come to you asking for the return of our Visions

Because all of our Telescopes were broken in the Years

We come to you seeking the Origin of our Dreams

Because they have left us for somewhere we have yet to have Gone

We come to you asking for Open Windows

Because ours have been dewed over with these Tears

We come to you for the delivery again of all you have gave Us

We had forgotten to hold them close and so they Disappeared.


“Where there is no divine vision people cast off restraint,

but blessed is the one who keeps Torah.” Proverbs 29:18 TLV


Resource: “The Seer’ by Jim Goll

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2Ynb8BWlSs

The Seer Annointing

Compass

By Brian Newman

COMPASS

Caught in that moment forever with you forever

Between might have been and what will be

Don’t know where I stand

Lost myself to see

In the end it’s you I found

And now I’m wondering

Where this plane will land

CHORUS:

My crazy life has shattered

But in the broken glass

I found a compass

Pointing me straight to you

-So many hear the music

But don’t dare to dance the dance

I hear you calling my name

And I gotta take this chance

-Now I’m wondering

How long this flight will last

Could have walked on forever and,

To catch another train

Could have left my heart to rest

But I had no choice but to ask your name

CHORUS:

My crazy life has shattered

But in the broken glass

I found a compass

Pointing me straight to you

-I’m seeing faces

But they don’t have a place

I’m hearing voices

Besides you, no one has a name

I’m taking chances

That I don’t get to choose

Because inside me there is a compass

Pointing me straight to you

-My body is aching

Begging me to stop

No, my heart is louder

And he won’t let me halt

Until the arrow is sleeping

Cause its led me to you

CHORUS:

My crazy life has shattered

But in the broken glass

I found a compass

Pointing me straight to you

Prayer for Those Needing A Compass


God of Direction


We need your Direction, your Instruction,

As it is said in the Ancient Tongue

Your Spirit (Ruach) and Your Torah (Book of Truth)

We have worn a path to the Tree of Knowledge

We have lost The Way to the Tree of Life

We need a still small Voice in the Day

We need a loud Cry in the Night

We need a Compass because our Spiritual Senses are all Dulled

We need a Map for this Brave New World

We need a Lamp for our Feet before we Fall


“Your ears will hear a word behind you saying: “This is the way, walk in it. When you turn to the right, 

or when you turn to the left.” 

Isaiah 30:21


Resource: Dan Allender Website (Help For My Life) https://theallendercenter.org/  

Forgotten Song

By Brian Newman

FORGOTTEN SONG

Will you call me to your place

Palace of poets where we're safe

From a world of war and rage

Would you fall with me to the knees

Would you pray with me that we both sleep

Surrounded

By the Truths so Epic they will heal

Can you feel this?

We're held inside this scene tonite

By the weight of a Gravity all too real

And the incense of burning motions

We can't fight

Inside the pounding of the rain

Within the heartbeat of the flame

Will you be the one?

To maybe play my Forgotten Song?

CHORUS:

Will you play my forgotten song?

Will you call the voice I've lost

Are you from the promised land

You hold the water in those hands

I'll show you all I am

Just to drink it from your palm

Will you be the one

Will you play my forgotten song?

Darling,

Set me free to see

All the reasons why I bleed

Chalk your thoughts upon

The walls around my heart

You've given me a reason to believe

I am,

Your wounded soldier here tonite

So won't you stitch my soul up tight

Let me rest here for a while

Within the pyre of your eyes

(Like a phoenix)

After your love I'll rise refined

-Something larger than I've learned of

-Somebody bigger than I was born from

-Someone nobler than I have been

-You're a dream sweeter than I let in

CHORUS:

Will you play my Forgotten Song

Will you call the voice I've lost

Are you the vision in starlit skin

Are you the vessel in satin sail

Here to set this anchored soul on out?

After Adam and Eve have lost their leaves

After we've both eaten from the tree

Seen the secrets time will free

Will our wounds no longer bleed

I've seen you, but will you still-believe in me?

Will you be the one?

Will you play my Forgotten Song?


Prayer for Forgotten Song


Creator of Intimacy

We ask that you step into our Marriages

We ask that you reverse the Curse of Leaving Eden

We ask that you remove these Fig Leaves between our selfish selves and our Beloved

We ask for a big love, a brave love, a bold love, and a Holy Love

A love that is Kadosh, set-apart, something unlike the world East of Eden has ever Known

We ask for Faith where there was Fear

We ask for New and Burning Love where there was Lukewarm Affection and Worn out Lust

We ask that the Cherubim Guard our Bedrooms from the Lies that we have been Sold about our sewn up selves and our Beloved

We ask that we not forget the Healing was Real and Whole

When the Stitches come between our Souls

We ask for Olive Branches where the Fig Leaves 

Once made us Alone


“Then the eyes of both of them were opened and they knew that they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made for themselves loin-coverings.” Genesis 3:7


Resource: “Love and War” by John and Stasi Eldredge

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJzLQNL4sGo

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Never Home

By Brian Newman

Never Home


Selling out one Sunday Afternoon

Telling everything

She was just another friend to never see again

(All I needed was everything again)

Who became a this week’s shining queen

-I would not be lonesome again because my hope is wearing thin

Of course I could not be her king

So I became the stumbling hero here

Oh the memory stings

Remember her and all like her lying wake most nights

Lying to myself so I can sleep

After I sing about her and her and her

And this broken romantic record on repeat for the crowd again

I'll drown out the memory with six strings

CHORUS:

Running through my mind,

Gotta get them outta here

Running from this lonesome place

Pulling Grace from my mistakes

Talking with a picture frame

Running outta here

Faces and Names may Change

But the Lonely is going, going never gone

I have slept in many houses, but never found a home

Never found a home

Seemed like the perfect escape

Just another magazine face

We were all artists and forgot it

Singing someone else's song

-Left my mind in Memory Land

-Left my faith in France

-Left her mark upon my heart

-Left my devotion with the scars

I should have left these hopeless romantic notions years ago

But these Dreams stopped back there somewhere

While the years they just rolled on

CHORUS:

Running through my mind,

Gotta get them outta here

Running from this lonesome place

Pulling grace from my mistakes

Talking with a picture frame

Running outta here

Faces and Names may Change

But the Lonely is going, going never gone

I have slept in many houses, but never found a home

Never found a home

Out without my gravity

Latch onto stars I find

Sooner than I'd like they fade away

This astronaut floats on


Prayer for Those Never Home


Creator of Hearts

We are here for Salvation

Salvation for our Spirits yes, but also for our Souls

Recue for our Mind, our Will, our Hearts

Our Hearts most of All

Cause we leave them in rocky hands and they come back Bruised

Cause we send them to wolves and they come back Torn

Cause we send them to find the Light and they get lost in the Dark

Our Hearts most of All

Cause we only ask for Love from those who know what they Want

When they want more than We’ve Got and less than We Are

Cause they never stopped to ask you what we are Worth

But we can’t really blame them Alone

Cause we are the ones who forgot it First


“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them shall fall to the ground apart from your Father’s consent. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. So do not fear; you are worth more than many sparrows.” Matthew 10:29


Resource: “I Kissed Dating Goodbye” by Joshua Harris


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcI0wG5AP6s 

The Showman

By Brian Newman

The Showman


Does carrying that Crown never get too heavy

Take up all your days until you’re too old to carry on?

Does burying all that widow’s gold

Take up too much room inside your soul until its’ gone?

Are there any Inner Rooms left Inside?

Are there any Sacred Hours you can Find?

Where your sons can take to Flight?

Where your daughters can Delight?

Where your wife can hide from the Storm Outside?

Where you haven’t filled them up with Showman’s Pride?

Chorus: On Showman,

When the Lights Don’t Glow

Do you got nothing left but the memory a Show?

When the Curtain Falls Do you got no glory left at All?

When the Airtime Fails Do those reruns become your private Hell?

Do those reruns become your private Hell?

Does carrying that all that shame ever get to heavy

Take up all your days until you’re too old to carry on?

Does eating up all the praise and applause

Take up too much room inside your soul until its’ gone?

-Are there any Treasured Memories left Inside

Are there any Buried Seasons you can Find

Where your sons learned what is wrong and what is Right?

Where your daughters learned they are worth the Fight?

Where your wife found a stage on you where she can Shine?

Where you haven’t built them by the Showman’s Design?

-And when the audience heads home

Where will You go to be Whole?

Oh, Showman, the Joker has got you blinded by the Glow?

Oh, Showman, it is you thats missing it all and didn't Know

Oh, Showman, does the cold wind ever blow

Hard enough to push you off that Stage

Hard enough to push you off that Stage


Prayer for The Showmen And Their Sheep


Director of The Universe

We ask you to give us Shepherds after your own Heart

We ask that we follow by your Spirit and not by Our Eyes

We ask that we are ruled by Statesmen instead of Politicians

We ask that we led by Leaders instead of Liars

We ask for Pastors and Prophets in the Pews instead of Pimps and Profiteers

We ask to bow our knees beside Broken Saints instead of Shiny Showmen

We ask that we be Washed by the Blood instead of Whitewashed by the Crowd


“But woe to you, Torah scholars and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you shut people out of the kingdom of heaven. For you do not enter yourselves, nor do you let those enter who are trying to go in” Matthew 23:13


Resource: “Courageous” movie https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=70MVn1q-yyM 

I Don't Know The Answers

By Brian Newman

I DON’T KNOW THE ANSWERS


Take me, from this roller coaster

Take me, from the questions spinning round my head

Shake me, from my death grip on the endings

Shake me, from my stronghold on the hinges

Keep my, eyes upon the path of right

Keep me, from chasing down the other side

Chorus: I don’t know the Answers

And for the First Time that’s alright

No more, waiting up all night

No more, looking over my shoulder

No more, dragging my own boulders

No more, feeling like I’ll never be a light

I don’t know the Answers

And for the First Time that’s alright

- Somehow, now it seems I too can be alright

Somewhere, I lost my obsession with the inflections

Someone, you came along me to stop my spinning

Somewhere, your gravity caught me in its might

- Take me, from this roller coaster

Take me, from the questions spinning round my head

Shake me, from my death grip on the endings

Shake me, from my stronghold on the hinges

Keep my, eyes upon the path of right

Keep me, from chasing down the other side

Chorus:

I don’t know the Answers

And for the First Time that’s alright

No more, waiting up all night

No more, looking over my shoulder

No more, dragging my own boulders

No more, feeling like I’ll never be a light

I don’t know the Answers

And for the First Time that’s alright

- Cause there is a God and it’s not me

So I will just let Him hold together

His Universe while I sleep tight

Cause it’s not mine, it’s not my life it’s not my fight

Cause there is a God and it’s not me

So I will just let Him hold together His Universe while I sleep tight

Cause it’s not mine, it’s not my light it’s not my right

So I will just let Him hold together His Universe while I sleep tight

While I sleep tight for the first time, tonight.

Prayer for those Who Don't Know The Answers


Author of Mysteries


Please help us to walk away from the Tree of Knowledge

Lead us on the winding path to the Tree of Life

Give us a Love for Mystery instead of a Fear of the Unknown

Increase our Faith instead of our Comfort

Remind us gently that a Good God cannot be found in the Mirror

And the Human Mind is a wonderful Servant 

but a Tyrannical Master


“Trust in ADONAI with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding.”

Proverbs 3:5 Tree of Life Version


Resource: www.rzmi.org Ravi Zacharias International Ministries

Ravi Zacharias is a Philosopher, Lecturer and 

Theologian from India

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QRnFFTxnuCohttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QRnFFTxnuCo (Oceans, Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong



Witness

By Brian Newman

WITNESS

Said to me nobody’s listening

As you scream

You’ve got no witnesses The crimes unseen

And who would really care?

When you’re not here

Will it be the same?

Will it fill the air?

-People you’ve been passing through

Now a piece of you Tomorrow comes to steal you back

Before you go, Just thought you should know

Yeah I just thought you should know

CHORUS:

Not just another day

Not another empty face

You’re a part of me

Your witness here,

I heard,

I see

Not invisible

My arms are opening

To catch you when you fall.

-Midnight melted slow

Once you called

To tell me you’d be gone

When tomorrow comes

Hung up the phone

These rooms are so alone

And you said to me

Who will know?

I’m invisible Nothings gonna change,

home is so alone

Even when I’m here I’m gone

Everywhere is so alone

CHORUS: Not just another day

Not another empty face

You’re a part of me

Your witness here,

I heard,

I see

Not invisible

My arms are opening

To catch you when you fall

Said tonite nobody’s breaking inside

Cause I’m gone

Well you lied

Said you’ve got no witnesses

No one will try To catch you when you fall

I’m witnessing

Eyes are opened wide

I’m never abandoning

My arms are opening

To catch you when you fall

To catch you if you fall

Prayer for Witness

To the God Who Is Judge


Prayer for Those Without A Witness


To the God Who Is Judge,

We ask that You send your Servants and your Messengers

As Witnesses to the Pain, Loneliness and Injustices

That we have endured through all our Years.

We ask that you Write them in Your Book

That all that was stolen would be Recorded for Justice

We ask that the Lonely be Placed in Homes

We ask that the Single be Married

We ask that the Married be Loved

We ask that the Elderly be Visited

We ask that the Sick be Restored

We ask that the Lonely be Embraced

We ask that the Children be Protected

We ask that the Parents be Provided with Wisdom and Patience

We ask that the Broken Hearts be Glued 

until they are Beautiful Again

We ask that Beaten Bodies are made Perfect and New

We ask that the Fractured Minds be Healed and Seamless

We ask that Shattered Spirits become Stitched back Whole


“You have recorded my wanderings.

You put my tears in Your bottle.

Are they not in Your book?” Psalm 56:9


Resource: “Justice” Sermon by John Paul Jackson-Youtube.com

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2ThsLRNTm8

Still I Listen

By Brian Newman

Still I Listen


I just knew that Tonight all the Stars could Fall

We would break the Chains from our Souls and who knows then….

But the Sky above me is black as my Sin

I just knew that the Best Things,

We would find a Home in a Heart for all of them…

But today the Best Things got Thrown Away Again

-Still I listen for the Saviour’s Song

Still I listen for the Saviour’s Song

Calling “Rise Up” to Dry Bones

And “Fight On” to Old Souls

And Say One More Prayer cause “Fear is not the End of This”

-I just knew when I told you the Dawn is coming my Friend

That the Nosferatu Romeos would be slain when Prince Charming

Rides his White Horse up into that broke down Palace you’ve been Living In

-I just knew when I told you the Complications are coming back Together

That the Puzzle Pieces would be falling back together like the Box

Was never ripped open when you were too young to put them back Again

-Still I listen for the Saviour’s Song

Still I listen for the Saviour’s Song

Calling “Rise Up” to Dry Bones

And “Fight On” to Old Souls

And Say One More Prayer cause “Fear is not the End of This”

-Accept this Apology but Accept this Hope with it

That the Girl They Stole Away for a Night without a Ring

And the Boy who was never Strong Enough to please his King

Will have their turn to Sing

-Cause still they listen for the Saviour’s Song

Cause still they listen for the Saviour’s Song

Calling “Rise Up” to Dry Bones

And “Fight On” to Old Souls

And Say One More Prayer cause “Fear is not the End of This”

And Say One More Prayer cause “​Fear is not the End of This”


("Fear is Not The End of This" is from an Edward Kowalzsyk song)


Prayer for Those Still Listening Despite The Disappointment


Narrator of our Lives

We ask that You give our Mess a Mission

We ask that You give our Pain a Purpose

We ask that there be Melody and Harmony to these Tangled Lyrics

We ask that there be sung somewhere

A Soundtrack to the Story of our Lives

More Beautiful than the Sound of our Broken Moments

We ask You for a bigger Picture

More than Fears and Tears that Haunted Us

More than waiting on Ships of Hope that never reached the Shore

We ask that we one day wear our White Stones Loud

Cause how they would portray us in the Script is only Orphan Souls

We ask you to retell us all we Missed

Cause You are the Only Director Who can write us a Better Life


“He who has an ear, let him hear what the Ruach is saying to Messiah’s communities. To the one who overcomes I will give some of the hidden manna, and I will give him a white stone—and written on the stone a new name that no one knows except the one who receives it.” Revelation 2:17


Resource: http://www.ransomedheart.com/

California

By Brian Newman

CALIFORNIA


Wasted my days at the Alternative CoffeeHouse

The summer before they closed it down

Turned a corner store into a coffeeshop

Like a little piece of California in our town

For Freaks and Geeks and Poets Without Pens

For Dreamers who Never Left the Ground

If they told you, you were lost

In our palace of poets you'd be found

With a guitar, or an inkpen

Idea burning bright

Candles flickered on until the unwelcome sun

Like us all just barely hanging on

To the moment that we shine

CHORUS:

Wish I was in California

Somebody teach me how to smile

Like you did, like I wish you’d do again.

Who was I,

When I laid my head down in your lap

Who was I with you and them? I wanna be him again

That smile we passed around

Didn't go home with anyone

Kept it there as our little secret

They can’t steal away with all their whitewashed sin

Besides who would understand

That we don't care for where you're going

Who you were, or what you've done

All we know is to take you as we find you

And to play our anthems, as you sing along

CHORUS:

Wish I was in California

Somebody teach me how to smile

Like you did, like I wish you’d do again.

Who was I,

When I laid my head down in your lap

Who was I with you and them? I wanna be him again

We learned a little about this life

You've got to choose your destination well

But be in no rush,

You'll get there soon enough

Don't have to live between each crisis in the making

Just gotta let a well known stranger's song

Carry you along

Wish I was in California

Somebody teach me how to smile

Like you did, like I wish you’d do again

Who is black-n-white inside

And wouldn't give it all

Just to be, collecting

Colors as they fall

Out of grace and a palace of poets

Here we're safe

From a world of war and rage

In August they closed our Alternative

Said we spoke our minds to loud

What were we supposed to choose?

Black and White Dreams or Walking Round all Black and Blue

From this small town attitude and small town abuse?

CHORUS:

Wish I was in California

Somebody teach me how to smile

Like you did, like I wish you’d do again.

Who was I,

When I laid my head down in your lap

Who was I with you and them? I wanna be him again


Prayer for Those Seeking A California


To The Artist who has Crafted us all

We come to you asking for Homes in other Hearts

We asked that we be Assigned to our own Tribes

We Petition you boldly for our Place in Your Kingdom

We seek from you a Palace of Poets where we are Safe

We ask that you remember we are Orphans in this World at War and Rage

We Plead that other Eyes and Hearts may See

We ask that they see how you Stitched us with Purpose and Molded us with a Plan

We ask that they understand the Mission we have been asked to Bear like a Ring

We ask You for Fellow Travelers as Comrades and Muses and Friends

We ask for the Names on our White Stones to be Read as we Sleep and Dream


“He who has an ear, let him hear what the Ruach is saying to Messiah’s communities. To the one who overcomes I will give some of the hidden manna,[ and I will give him a white stone—and written on the stone a new name that no one knows except the one who receives it.”

Revelation 2:17 Tree of Life Version


Resource: http://healingartsprojectinc.org/  

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Song for Someone

By Brian Newman

Song for Someone

Tonight,

For the first time- I picked up for your Call Yet

I’m not Begging to Stay Or

Asking how much Labor will this Cost for Love?

Today,

For the very first time-I walked into your Arms Yet

I’m coming to Life instead of Fading Away And

Asking how many Nights will we have until its Gone?

Tomorrow,

For the very first time-I will walk into my Home Yet

Time will Soothe instead of Burn, Someone Stands instead of Runs, And

Words Calm instead of Cut

This Song is for Someone, Someone whose Name is not yet Known

This Song is for a Place I’ve yet to be, A Place most would call Home

This Song is for Someone, Someone whose Name is not yet Known

Tonight,

For the Covenant I draw my Sword- To fight your Demons All

I’ve been Anxious to Slay for

Taking all the Hopes and Dreams they stole Away

Today,

For the very first time-I hold the ones you Love

I’m coming with a Hammer to break down their Walls And

Arriving with a Big Love to recover how they’ve Shone

Tomorrow,

For all our Yesterdays I return, to bring the Wages of Honor to your Door

The Flames Climb instead of Fall, Grey becomes as Gold And

A Lifetime spills into the Kingdom because a Lifetime was not Enough

This Song is for Someone, Someone whose Name is not yet Known

Someone whose Name is not yet Known


Prayer for Those Singing a Song for Someone Unknown


Divine Matchmaker

We ask for your Eternal Mind to give us Hope

You know the End from the Beginning

You see the Hearts where each of the Lonely will find a Place to Belong

Before their Voice is Heard or their Smile is even Known

You Created the Kingdom to Come

Where there is Communion among all the Souls

You Created the Bridal Covenant to Remind us of Home


“Instead let it be in the hidden person of the heart, with the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious. For this is the way the holy women, who put their hope in God, used to beautify themselves long ago—being submitted to their own husbands just as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord. You have become her daughters by doing what is good and not fearing intimidation. In the same way, husbands, live with your wives in an understanding way. Though they are weaker partners, honor them as equal heirs of the grace of life. In this way, your prayers will not be hindered.”

1st Peter 3:4


Resource: “Spit and Polish for Husbands, How to be Your Wife’s Knight in Shining Armor” Book by Bryan Davis

Resource: “The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands” Book by Dr. Laura Schlessinger

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8kajEBPXww" 

Love and War" John and Stasi Eldredge

Turn It Around

By Brian Newman

TURN IT AROUND

Got your knees down on the floor

Conversing with angels again

All alone with the Lord of all your hopes again

At the home of this madness

You patiently wait on Him to take your sadness

And I told you that I would never understand

But here we are, hand in hand again

The Someone between us has it written down

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

-Got my head down on the floor

Hiding from my demons again

All alone with the ghosts of all my chances again

At the home of this madness

Yes I shake and I wait on

Light to cure my darkness

And you told me you would never understand

But here we are, hand in hand again

Chorus: The Someone between has it written down

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

We’re both out of our time

We’re both out of our place

I’m about out of my Mind

You’re absolutely never out of Grace

Somewhere between us we’ll be found

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

-Been so long on your knees

But you aren’t here by chance

This is your song and this fight is your dance

Children been waiting for a true believer

Another generation spinning out of control

And the home of this modern madness

If you don’t pray it will soon swallow them all

We’re both out of our time

We’re both out of our place

I’m about out of my Mind

You’re absolutely never out of Grace

Somewhere between us we’ll be found

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

- Sometimes I wonder how you’re strong

In a world that believes you’re wrong

Lead me to that Light

So I can guide my hands to find my Sword

Lead me to that Flame

So I can hold you safely through the Cold

Tell me tomorrow and I’ll believe

All that you speak about this God

All that I won’t admit to me

Chorus:

The Someone between has it written down

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

We’ll be the ones to turn it around

We’re both out of our time

We’re both out of our place

I’m about out of my Mind

You’re absolutely never out of Grace

Somewhere between us we’ll be found

We’ll be the ones to turn it around


Prayer for Those Who Turn It Around


Creator of Friendship and Covenant

We ask that You bring hearts into our Lives

Hearts that will give Purpose to our Strength instead of Prey on our Weakness

We ask that You bring Hands into Our Lives

Hand that will Lift Us Up instead of Pull Us Down

We ask that you Bring Feet into our Lives

Feet that will lead us fast into the Light instead of further into the Darkness

We ask that you Bring Eyes into our Lives

Eyes that see the Possibility instead of the Imperfection

We ask that you Bring Ears into our Lives

Ears that hear only the Truth and not the Lies

We ask that you bring those who Bring Shalom

Because this World has not taught us How to Heal but only 

How to Bleed


“Two are better than one,

because they get a good return for their effort.

For if they fall, the one will lift up his companion.

But oy to the one who falls and has no one to lift him up!

Furthermore, if two lie together, then they will be warm.

But how can one keep warm alone?

Though a man might overpower one, 

two can stand against him.

Moreover a threefold cord cannot be quickly broken.”

Ecclesiastes 4:9 Tree of Life Version


Resource: www.coda.org “Co-Dependents Anonymous” 

I Would Be Your Soldier

By Brian Newman

SOLDIER

Remember me in my raincoat

I didn't want to wear

I knew for certain I could bear the downpour

You said son you’re only 5 years old

I swore I would be the fine out in the cold

Wear this cape for the whole wide world to know

I could be your Soldier, be your Hero, I could be Strong

-Remember the words he spoke I didn’t want to hear them where

I knew for certain your heart would tear

You said son you’re only 10 years old

I know you don’t know the ways of the world

Where you going to go when it’s not safe here anymore?

I could be your Soldier, be your Hero, I could be Strong

CHORUS: If I had just one more day

Promise I would make it all okay

Stitch your dreams and glue your smile

Pick you up in my wings

And fly so high Your troubles couldn't be seen for miles

I promise Momma I’d make a Soldier out of me

-I swore I would be your antidote

Swallow this bitter pill for us both

You said son you’re only 15 years old

I’m getting sick and I’m about to go home

Wear your faith for the whole wide world to know

You have been my Soldier, been my Hero, you have been Strong

CHORUS: If I had just one more day

Promise I would make it all okay

Stitch your dreams and glue your smile

Pick you up in my wings And fly so high

Your troubles couldn't be seen for miles

I promise Momma

I’d make a Soldier out of me

- I won’t forget the raincoat I didn’t want to wear

I won’t forget this broken home

Cause I can built a better one of my own

You went to sleep

Before you could see

Me take up my sword And take up my shield

And start a war for us and those like us

And all that we Believed

And make a Soldier out of me

And make a Soldier out of me


Prayer for Soldiers With and Without Uniforms


To The God Who Is a Warrior

We ask that Victims become both Forgivers and Victors

We ask that Abusers become both Repenters and Restorers

We ask that the Weak are made Strong

We ask that the Strong are made Merciful

We ask that this Generation becomes the Generation of Justice

We ask that this Generation becomes the Generators of Mercy

We ask that the Pain is given a Purpose

We ask that the Bitterness is made the Fuel for a Blessing

We ask also that these Hands that these Mercenaries became Warriors

We ask that these Hands that were Shaking 

Be Made Ready for War


“Of David. Blessed be ADONAI my Rock— who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle.” Psalm 144:1


Resource: Rak Chazak, The Ancient War Cry-Youtube.com

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c82Ilhalrt8

Resource: "6 Signs of a Rising Warrior" John Paul Jackson

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prTo9QUgctM 

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Postcard for the Weary World 

By Brian Newman

Postcard for the Weary World


Three a.m. and Once Again

Someone’s been Shot

More Children Abandoned

A Woman Robbed of Innocence

Or a Husband’s Family Lost

The World It Turns, By Tomorrow They’ll Be Forgot

Just Reminds Me That I’m So Small

Trying to Turn This World from the Path it is On

Or Get My Own Foot Off the Gas and Make a Turn

He's Here

From The Fading Hold on Frazzled Ropes

From The Secret Rooms of Broken Homes

From the Plans to Save Our Skins and Souls

From Maps We Draw For Our Own Way Home

From Sudden Stops, The Dead End Roads

When We've Lost His Way Again

My Strength For Hanging On

And Reasons For Trying At All

Are Wearing Thin

And Drawing to and End

The Rope is Frayed and All the Silver Lining Gone

I Hear a Knocking on My Bolted Door

And He Appears

Gentle Nail Scarred Hands yet Burning Eyes Without Fear

Wraps Me In His Carpenter’s Arms

And Shows Me Somewhere Beautiful

Seems So Far From Here

But it’s the Same Old World, if Only I'll Answer His Call

Him Living In Me

We Can Build It Back Again

Giving Me Gentle Hands yet Burning Eyes Without Fear

The End of My Plan To Change It All On My Own

It’s Where He’ll Begin

To Build It Back Again

Not from Outside He's Had to Live Within

To the World He Intended Us to Live

Amen He’s Here

Amen He’s Here

Yeshua Comes

And I Have No Doubt and I Have No Fear

Put a Sign Out for the Weary World

Amen He’s Here


Prayer for For the Weary World


Elohim The Judge of All

We ask Your Forgiveness for our Apathy

We ask Your Forgiveness for our Silence

We ask Your Forgiveness for using all we have only for Ourselves

We ask your Forgiveness for believing we could Fix this all on our Own

We intercede for our Politicians and Lawmakers

Those who have the Power of the Pen

We intercede for our Police and our Judges and Military

Those who have the Power of the Sword

We intercede for our Parents and Siblings and Friends

Those who have the Power of Presence

We intercede for Ourselves and our Churches, Synagogues and Houses of Worship

Those who have the Power of Prayer

We ask for both Justice and Mercy

Those who have one without the other tear down the World

We ask for both Justice and Mercy

Because Tikkun Olam, the Repairing of the World

Requires one to become the Bricks and one to become the Mortar

For all our Ancestor’s and our Neighbor’s Broken Places

We ask you to use our Hands and our Mouths and our Feet

Yeshua we ask, that it’s us that you work Through

Yeshua we ask when it’s Done

We remember that it’s You they should Glorify and You First that they should Love.


“ Then they will answer and say, ‘Our hands did not shed this blood, nor did our eyes see. Grant atonement for Your people Israel whom You have redeemed, ADONAI, 

and do not put innocent blood on Your people Israel.’ 

Then atonement will be granted to them for the blood.”

Deuteronomy 21:7


Resource: http://victimsofcrime.org/

John Paul Jackson “Regaining What You’ve Lost” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYIcUTmNsvs

Dan Allender https://theallendercenter.org/

*Painting is "Forgiven" by Bianca Lily

Paying the Costs of Cure

By Brian Newman

COSTS OF CURE

Man there is a problem here

We can see it on the news

We’ve got therapy for the symptoms

But no one wants to pay the costs of cure

Costs us more than power

Some baby’s mommy is going to have to be supported so she can stay at home

Cost us more than dollars

Some son’s father is going to have to be respected enough to stick around to watch him grow

Cost us our good time some-times

Some girl would have to throw away Cosmo and keep her heart-box closed

Cost us our idea of what makes a man a man

Set down your reckless guns and take a breath, take a stand

There is no escape

From this madness that has spread

You can buy it all

You can make a donation but that won’t buy a lasting salvation

You can buy a diet pill- every bottle guarantees a pound lost equals an ounce of love

You can buy a t-shirt- and with its logo a place in the world

You can buy your happiness right now if you just charge it to your credit card

But there is no easy answer for this infected nation

And there was no dollar printed that is good enough

Cash is cold-alone and again the belly grows, new logos won’t fill the hole

You can sell and buy these lies but you’re still the same when markets closed its door

Man there is a problem here

We can see it on the news

We’ve got therapy for the symptoms

But no one wants to pay for the cure

Costs us more than lovers

Somebody’s parents are going to have to work it through

Cost us more than viewing hours

Somebody needs to get off the couch and watch the sky turn blue

Cost us our so called good-life some times

Someone would have to set down a dollar to hold a son or a daughter

Cost us our idea of what makes a woman beautiful

Set down your make-up and bikini’s, just stand by your man and love your children

But there is no easy answer for this infected nation

And there was no dollar printed that is good enough

Cash is cold-alone and again the belly grows, new logos won’t fill the hole

You can sell and buy these lies but you’re still the same when markets closed its door

Man there is a problem here

We can see it on the news

We’ve got therapy for the symptoms

But no one wants to pay the cost of cure

But no one wants to pay the costs of cure


Prayer for Those Paying the Costs of Cure


King of Kings

We invite you to Save our Nation from Itself

We ask you to take away whatever it Takes

Before we have bought and sold everything that is Precious

We ask that you remove our Power

Before we lead anymore of the World Astray

We ask that you change our Hearts

Before we witness the collapse of our House of Cards

We ask that you return the Fathers Lead to serve the Children

We ask that you bring the Mothers Love back to Heal the Home

We ask that you Revive the Hope of the Youth and teach them all that we did Not

We ask that you act quickly in these Lives

Before this Generation is entirely too far Gone


“Lo, everyone who thirsts, come to the water,

and you who have no money, come, buy and eat.

Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost!

Why do you spend money for what is not bread?

Your wages for what does not satisfy?

Listen diligently to Me, and eat what is good,

and delight yourself in abundance.

Incline your ear and come to Me.

Listen, so that your soul may live.

I will make an everlasting covenant with you,

the trustworthy loyalty to David.

Behold, I made him a witness to the peoples,

a leader and commander for the peoples.

Behold, you will summon a nation you do not know,

and a nation that did not know you will run to you,

because of Adonai your God and the Holy One of Israel,

for He has glorified you.”

Seek Adonai while He may be found,

call on Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way,

and the unrighteous one his thoughts,

let him return to Adonai, so He may have compassion on him,

and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon.

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,

nor are your ways My ways.”

It is a declaration of Adonai.

“For as the heavens are higher than earth,

so are My ways higher than your ways,

and My thoughts than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:1-9


Resource: “Torah Government” by Norman Willis

Free download at www.nazareneisrael.org 

Travelers 

By Brian Newman

Travelers

The Years will stretch on like Winter that never Thaws

I could have told you long ago but you would never set foot out of the Door

The Pain and the Persistence and the Adventure would have all been Lost

This Life will leave you with a body full of Scars

I could have told you long ago but you would never put your Heart into it or in the Show

The Fierceness and the Fire in your eyes and the Battle for a better world would have all been Lost

But you won’t be Travelling alone

Home is Far my Son

But you won’t lack for a place at the Table so go

Be Young and be Bold

Be on Fire when the World Grows Cold

My Son even if you have no Hand to Hold

You won’t be walking this Lonely Road All Alone

You won’t be walking this Lonely Road All Alone

Cause I’ve got Travelers You haven’t even Met

Cause I’ve got Places You didn’t even Plan

Cause I’ve got you Fellow Travelers

Cause I’m setting them down from the Clouds along your Path

Cause I’ve got Hands big enough to Straighten the Curves in the Road Ahead

Cause I’ve got you Fellow Travelers

Cause I’m setting them down from the Clouds along your Path

But you won’t be Travelling alone

Home is Far my Son

But you won’t lack for a place at the Table so go

Be Young and be Bold

Be on Fire when the World Grows Cold

My Son even if you have no Hand to Hold

You won’t be walking this Lonely Road All Alone

You won’t be walking this Lonely Road All Alone


Prayer for Travelers


Creator of our Journeys

We come to Thank You for not giving us all the Answers

Cause we would have lost our courage and with our courage gone lost our chance to Win

We come to Thank You for not showing us the dangers around the Bend

Cause we would have turned back when the air got Thin

We come to Thank You for giving us a GPS and not just a Map

Cause we get lost when we try too hard to see Ahead

Cause we need to know the borders of where our paths begin and End

We come to Thank You for these Travelers

Cause without them we would fall into these pits and never find a helping Hand

We Thank You for this Journey

We Thank You for these Travelers that you Send


“The pillar of cloud by day and the pillar of fire by night never departed from the people.”

Exodus 13:22


Resource: “No More Christian Nice Guy” by Paul Coughlin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YabCUuJOjTo

"I Just Need You" by Toby Mac https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4wNpOeakhEM  

Faith Songs

An ongoing series of informational entries

Just When You Thought The Best Was Through

By Brian Newman

Just When You Thought The Best Was Through

On a cold January the sky fell down

The bricks were crumbling and the stones toppled out

On an old typewriter I spelled it there , my soul out loud

Then you put them all together glue gun spine and paper bound

You said hey there brother, don’t let yourself drown

Your world is so much bigger than this beggar’s town

----Friend you’ve never found it out

All this Treasure you’ve hid within yourself

Friend I dug out all the gold from you

All the words inside you never knew

They’ve been building a better world for you

Just when you thought the best was through

Just when you though the best was through

-On a warm November it turned all round

The girl came back and the accounts blacked out

On a brand new podium I spoke it there, my soul out loud

Then you put them all together bringing smiles from frowns and getting videos out

You said hey there brother, don’t let yourself get proud

Your world was once so much smaller than this empire now

----Friend you’ve never found it out

All this Treasure you’ve hid within yourself

Friend I dug out all the gold from you

All the words inside you never knew

They’ve been building a better world for you

Just when you thought the best was through

Just when you though the best was through


Prayer For Those Who Thought The Best Was Through


To The God who Raises Up The Lowly

We ask that you help us see others with our Spirits and not just our Eyes

We ask that you help others see us with their Spirits and not just their Eyes

We ask that we all Wear our White Stones Proud

We ask that we all toss our Black Stones Out

We ask that your Raise up the Lowly from the Pit

We ask that your Bring the Prideful down from the Pedistool

We ask that you mold us into Who we are made to Be

We ask that you Break of us the 

Desire to be Someone Else Instead


“For you see your calling, brothers and sisters, that not many are wise according to human standards, not many are powerful, and not many are born well. Yet God chose the foolish things of the world so He might put to shame the wise; and God chose the weak things of the world so He might put to shame the strong; and God chose the lowly and despised things of the world, the things that are as nothing, so He might bring to nothing the things that are— 

so that no human might boast before God.”

1st Corinthians Chapter 1 Verse 28


Resource: “The Hope Line” Radio with Dawson McAllister www.thehopeline.com 

No More Stones

By Brian Newman

No More Stones


I’ve walked this Road

With no one by my Side

I’ve walked this Road

With no one in Front and no one Behind

-All I’ve collected in my Years is these Stones

Stones I’ve Dodged became Stones I’ve Thrown

Years of getting Stones on this Road paved with Sadness then Madness

Years of getting Stones when I begged for Bread from Hearts that should have tended Mine

Chorus: But Yahweh I’ve never walked this Road Alone

Cause You wanted to pave it Clear with Gold

Cause of the Choices I have Made

All I’ve ever walked is Dirty and Broken

But this whole Time I should have Known

You were always by my Side

How my World would have Changed

If I had called upon Your Name

If I had called upon Your Name

Today I am Asking

For a Life of No More Stones

-All I’ve known despite my friendly Smile

Alone I’ve caused cause all I’ve known is Fight or Flight

Years of getting Alone with the Monsters under my Bed in the Night

Years of getting Alone when I begged for Love from these Hearts that should have tended to Mine

Chorus: But Yahweh I’ve never walked this Road Alone

Cause You wanted to pave it Clear with Gold

Cause of the Choices I have Made

All I’ve ever walked is Dirty and Broken

But this whole Time I should have Known

You were always by my Side

How my World would have Changed

If I had called upon Your Name

If I had called upon Your Name

Today I am Asking

For a Life of No More Stones

- All I’ve collected in my Years is Gone

Stones I’ve Dodged became a Castle and a Home

Years of getting Hugs instead Bruises and Broken Bones

Years of getting Bread and a Place at the Table instead of Shame I’ve Known

Years of getting Held instead of Punching through my Private Walls of Hell Alone

Years of getting Living Water instead of Bitterness from my Heart’s Deep Well of a Hole

-Cause you’ve got my Front and my Back

And all I’ve never walked with these Warrior Angels by my Sides

All I’ve collected in my Years is Gone

Today I am Thankful For

A Life of No More Stones


Prayer for Those Who Need No More Stones


Yahweh by Our Side

The God of Time and Space

The Spirit who is in our Past, our Present and our Future

We thank You for being with us in our Darkness

We thank you for offering Your Hand when we refused It

We thank you for being the Light even when we wouldn’t See

We thank you for drawing a Map even if we wouldn’t Read

We Thank You for seeing the Road Ahead

We Thank You for removing the Stones even we pulled them back on our Path

We Thank You for planting Roses even where we dropped seeds for all our Weeds

We ask You to come into our Chaos and bring Order in a Moment

We ask You to turn this Life into a Mission for Your Kingdom

Despite the Years we wasted building our own little “Empire of Dirt”

Because You are Yahweh by Our Side

The God of Time and Space

The Spirit who is the Historian of our Past

The Salvation of our Present

The Reminder of our Future


“Yeshua said to them, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to Me will never be hungry, and whoever believes in Me will never be thirsty.”

John 6:35 TLV


Resource: “Already There” by Casting Crowns-Music

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qtg9axTtNLg

John Paul Jackson “Getting to Know 

The God of Time and Space”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vP3a18PNoLY  

Yahweh You Remain

By Brian Newman

Yahweh You Remain

Waiting by the Phone

Perhaps it will tell me that I am still Alive?

Staring at a Screen

Possibly it will let this weary Heart have Hope Again?

Even if she Goes

Even if better if she Stays

It won’t be my first Day without the Sun

It won’t be my first Walk all through the Rain

It won’t be my first Dinner across from an Empty Chair

It won’t be my last Dance on my Kitchen Floor just holding Air

But even if she Goes

But even better is she Stays

Yahweh you Remain

Yahweh you Remain

Waiting by this Hospital Room

Perhaps it will tell me that I one more Day to Smile?

Hoping that once again this Green Line will Beep

Possibly it will let this weary Heart have another night of weary Sleep?

Even if she Goes

Even if better if she Stays

It won’t be my first Day without the Sun

It won’t be my first Walk all through the Rain

It won’t be my first Dinner across from an Empty Chair

It won’t be my last Dance on my Kitchen Floor just holding Air

But even if she Goes

But even better is she Stays

Yahweh you Remain

Yahweh you Remain

But even if life presses me in until a Diamond Heart is Found

But even if the sky falls down all over this Debtor’s Town

Even if every one that ever knew my White Stone Name

Even if every one that made the monster’s under my bed to go Away

Even if they Go

Even better if they Stay

Yahweh you Remain

Yahweh you Remain


Prayer for Those Who Keep Hope That Yahweh Remains


Unchanging Creator, We ask that you be our Center

We must have a Fixed Object upon which we can Focus our Gaze

We can’t stand without your Steady when we are Spinning from the Changes of our Days

We need a Compass that will leads us Home when we have Lost our Way

We are seeking a Northern Star to follow when we are tossed about in the Sea

We can’t fly anywhere but the Darkest Space without our Gravity to keep us Safe

We are the Grass that Withers and the Soul Lights that Fade

We are but a Season of Flowers that will no longer Bloom if the Summer is Delayed

We are Fragile and we are Dizzy and we are Blown Away by our Fears without You

Please be the Aleph and the Tav, The One Who Never Began but Always Remains


“God is not a man who lies, or a son of man who changes his mind! Does He speak and then not do it, or promise and not fulfill it?” Numbers 23:19


Resource: Book “Sabbath” by Dan Allender

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3FllwWgDpA&t=50s

"God of All My Days" by Casting Crowns

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYkZE8AogDE 

Our Blog

An ongoing series of informational entries

Calling Me Home 

By Brian Newman

Calling Me Home 

I’ve been so long without my Gravity

I was afraid to Fly Anymore

I didn’t want to be Grounded

I was afraid to spread my wings but not Return

Chorus:

But even when it’s apparent to the World

That this boy’s Anchor is long Gone

You’ve never left me to Float

You’ve never left me to Float

You’ve always gently called me Home

-

Even when I drifted off into the Darkness

And the Lighthouse was just in my past and too far Off

Even when I lingered on the edge of Reality

You sent a Signal that sounded like our Song

You’ve always gently called me Home

-

I was known to fade out into the Cold

Wander off into the Night

Get Lost inside my Troubled Mind

Release the Feathers of my Thoughts

Float past the Stars where Dreamers are known to get Lost

Chorus:

But even when it’s apparent to the World

That this boy’s Anchor is long Gone

You’ve never left me to Float

You’ve never left me to Float

You’ve always gently called me Home

-Even when I drifted off into the Darkness

And the Lighthouse was just in my past and too far Off

Even when I lingered on the edge of Reality

You sent a Signal that sounded like our Song

You’ve always gently called me Home


Prayer for Those Hoping To Be Called Home


Guardian of Dreamers

Please send us those who will be gentle with our Fragileness

Even when we are the ones who are supposed to be Strong

Please send us those who can sing us our Song

When we have forgotten our own Words

Until they arrive and even After

We ask that you be our Ultimate Gravity

Cause you won’t leave us to Float

Remind us that you created our wings so we can Fly

Cause you made us to search the Stars

Remind us that you also gave us a place here where we Belong

Cause you created us to change this place, this world, this Home


“A man with many friends may be harmed by them, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.” Proverbs 18:24


Resource: Recovery Within Reach www.recoverywithinreach.org (Broken People Helping Broken People)

National Association of Mental Illness www.NAMI.org (for Family Members of Those Suffering from Mental Illness)


Lost Songs (Those NOT in Audio Poetry"

Bleed and Speak

By Brian Newman

Bleed and Speak

They can bleed but they can't speak

And we will never know, who they could be

It could have been you, could have been me

Your sister, your brother, the next hero to save the day

Now we will never know

Never know who they could be

---

She was only Seventeen

And the t.v. told her how easy it would be

Just see the Doc and pay the Cost

Never said how much would be forever lost

Looking at the slide, under the belly's arch, in kindergarten yards

These little ghosts are free but never run too far

Chorus:

Blood is crying out to G*d you see

Its Covering the Pain and the Fear and the Greed

From the floor in surgery it seeps

It covers her and the boy who ran away

It covers the Doctor and the congressman he pays

As we stand here silent it covers you and me

We dont bleed but we should speak

Or we will never know, who they could be

----

We all bleed, but about it we won't speak

And we will never heal, while supermen we pretend to be

I could have loved you, you could have loved me

Your sisters, your brothers, the ones you chased away

Now we will never know

Never know who they could be

-

He was only Thirty-Three

And He never pretended it was an easy Truth to Preach

He Just saw the Debt and Paid the Cost

Never willing to just let wander, those who were forever lost

In their Pride, and in their Pain, underneath thier scars

These prison doors are open, but we never run too far

Chorus:

Blood is crying out to G*d you see

Its Covering the Pain and the Fear and the Greed

From the streets of Jerusalem it seeps

It covers her and the boy who ran away

It covers the Doctor and the congressman he pays

As we stand here silent it covers you and me

We dont bleed but we should speak

Or we will never know, who they could be

Post Card for the Weary World

By Brian Newman

Lyrics for the Weary World


Three A.M. and Once Again

Someone’s been Shot

More Children Abandoned

A Lady Robbed and Husband Lost

The World It Turns, By Tomorrow They’ll Be Forgot

Just Reminds Me That I’m So Small

Trying to Turn This World from the Path Its Own

Or Get My Own Foot Off the Gas and Make a Turn

He's Here

From The Fading Hold on Frazzled Ropes

From The Secret Rooms of Broken Homes

From the Plans to Save Our Skins and Souls

From Maps We Draw For Our Own Way Home

From Sudden Stops, The Dead End Roads

When We've Lost His Way Again

My Strength For Hanging On

And Reasons For Trying At All

Are Wearing Thin

And Drawing to and End

The Rope is Frayed and All the Silver Lining Gone

I Hear a Knocking on My Bolted Door

And He Appears

Gentle Nail Scarred Hands yet Burning Eyes Without Fear

Wraps Me In His Wings

And Shows Me Somewhere Beautiful

Seems So Far From Here

But its the Same Old World, if Only I'll Answer His Call

Him Living In Me

We Can Build It Back Again

Giving Me Gentle Hands yet Burning Eyes Without Fear

The End of My Plan To Change It All On My Own

It’s Where He’ll Begin

To Build It Back Again

Not from Outside He's Had to Live Within

To the World He Intended Us to Live

Amen He’s Here

Amen He’s Here

Yeshua Comes

And I Have No Doubt and I Have No Fear

Put a Sign Out for the Weary World

Amen He’s Here

Rest Your Weary Head

Three A.M. snd Once Again

No One To Call

Voices Haunt

Demons Taunt

Pictures On The Wall

Reminds Me Who I Have Been

The Ones I’ve Hurt and the Ones I’ve Lost

In My Fading Hold on Frazzled Ropes

In The Secret Rooms of My Broken Homes

In My Plans to Save My Own Skin and Soul

In Maps I’ve Drawn For My Own Way Home

In the Sudden Stops, The Dead End Roads

When I’d Lost His Way Again

He's Still Here

My Strength For Hanging On

And Reasons For Living At All

Are Wearing Thin

And Drawing to and End

The Rope is Frayed and All the Silver Lining Gone

I Hear a Knocking on My Bolted Door

And He Appears

Gentle Nail Scarred Hands yet Burning Eyes Without Fear

Wraps Me In His Wings

And Shows Me Someone Strong and Beautiful

Seems So Far From Me

But its the Same Marred Clay and Tainted Blood, Only With a Brand New Soul

Because Him Living In Me

He Can Mold Me Back Again

Not from Outside He's Got to Live Within

Giving Me Gentle Hands yet Burning Eyes Without Fear

The End of My Plan To Save My Own Skin

Is Where I Know He’ll Begin

The Man I Could Have, Should Have Been

Had I Not Listened To The Lie Again

A Man On a Mission He Created Me to Live

Amen He’s Here

Amen He’s Here

Yeshua Comes

And I Have No Doubt and I Have No Fear

Put a Sign Out for the Weary World

Amen He’s Here

He's Here

In The Fading Hold on Frazzled Ropes

In The Secret Rooms of Broken Homes

In the Plans to Save Our Skins and Souls

In Maps We Draw For Our Own Way Home

In the Sudden Stops, The Dead End Roads

When We’ve Lost Our Way Again

Its That Place Where He Appears

Knocking On the Door

Don’t Wait Just Shout

Amen He’s Here!

Won’t You Let Him In

So He’ll Begin

Molding Brand New Souls in the Same Old Skin

With a Sign Out for the Weary World

Yeshua’s Living Here

Yeah Yeshua’s Living Here

Won’t You Come On In

And Rest Your Weary Head

Crowns

By Brian Newman

Who Gives The Crowns


Today it has come, the end of your line.

Burned all your days down, turned to smoke all your time.

You’ve left us a long trail of love-I hope your children will follow behind

Brought Faith like a Stone, it doesn’t shake-I hope its stays when in blows the night

What Will We Remember,

The Laughter and Grief

With Strings on our Fingers

With Stones from the Ground

With Books full of Pictures

With Ghosts of the Good Times that Linger Around

Chorus:

What We Will Remember,

It Doesn’t Matter

Cause G-d Gives the Crowns

No Matter How the Ravens Steal Good Seeds from Their Ground

Today it has come, for the final drive

Knock on the door, after this morning/mourning it won’t open twice

You’ve Left us some Rumors, Inuendos to find

Girl They’ll say You were Crazy, They’ll say You were Wild

They’ll never know You

How you ran a Good Race, How You Gave it a Helluva of Fight

Or How You did your Best With the Thorns in your Side

What Will They Remember,

It doesn’t Matter

Cause G-d Gives the Crowns

No Matter the Rumors, Come Flying Around

One Hundred Years Undone, the End of Our Time

Wicked and the Righteous, Their Choice’s Are Spent Can’t Use Them Again,

When the Day of Judgment Arrives

You’ve Left a Long Trail of Love- I know that your Maker Will Find

The Bad and the Good are All Under His Blood

And You did your Best With the Thorns In Your Side

Chorus:

Yes He Will Remember,

All of these Matters

Cause He Gives the Crowns

When the Last of Man’s Day, Come Circling Around